Tourist

51st words: lost a child
Text / imp children children children

XU En nothing to the shower, and leaves. He threw in the towel on me. My neck really hurts, it really is not like a dream. Water or splashed down from above, leaching, my whole body is full of clothing and absorption of water, sink even let me stand all stand up.

I stood in front of the mirror. The skin on my neck out Shenzhe bloodshot eyes, blood-streaked purple under some shallow traces should be left Peng. I am homesick, and would like to Beijing, like my mother had. Think I have the dates before the age of 22, the original, when the pain simply can not be called pain. I think Dad and I get together with my mother, and Peng together, I want to return to the years of time, as a matter as trivial, and fights bitterly with my mother, because it does not take Peng my phone and hysterical. Bottom of the toad is happy, it does not know what a big pain, it is because it did not tasted the big pain and suffering.

I dial the phone Peng, and asked: "asleep?" Peng said: "Not yet." "Peng, you remember, my first time was how the pro-you?" "You want me filling drunk, and then pro-me, but first, you drunk, but it does not matter, you have a drunk on the rush came directly to me. "I smiled:" Then you remember the first thing I will give you something? "" a big, big underwear, you say so you can wear it, you will marry me. "I laughed:" That piece is too great, I go to now wear them. "I asked:" That's You remember my father my mother's wedding anniversary? "" April 16. "I laughed:" Peng, I return to Washington with you, OK? "Peng said:" Good. "I continued to laugh .

What are all doomed, and Peng, destined, like my dad, like my mother, so I think that has his place, is home.

I wore every day, children with high-necked shirt.

Professor James was indeed there are things that allow me to do, but I spoke up and said I'm going to Washington a few days, Jim approved. Americans are focused on sabbatical, they believe the results could be achieved after the holidays.

Me and Peng-fei in Washington the day before, Yan Weibang me. He asked: "green, you and XU En-how it?" I said: "I did not how?" "I'm sorry you do XU En's the fix?" "Little Buddha, how can you so strange? Did you told me that he is a rogue, and now you also like earnestly wish the two of us together. "" At first, that it had, and now is now. "" What is the difference? "" were to go bigger, and when I come to him, but a few really Dolls , you know, Zanzhe apartment building does not have one? Now, he really repented. "I refute the little Buddha:" I saw him at the university's arm around a woman. "That scene, I have now only one of a pretext. I told myself: Who does not owe me and Xu en. Small Buddha sighed: "Well, you two can figure it out. I go drink water." Squeezed into a small Buddha my apartment. I froze a bit, as Peng inside. Peng met with a small Buddha, but also froze a bit. When walking a small Buddha, said to me: "I did it look down upon you, and you are so deep Daoxing, Sa Xu en also allows you to tidy up." I pulled a small Buddha, asked: "XU En, how the ? "Little Buddha:" No how, that is the same every day, like Grandpa. "Kobotoke away. Uncle? XU En-fed all right Liuniao started it?

Peng somehow heard me and Yan Weibang dialogue. He said to me: "green, do you like a lost a child." I in accordance with the Peng, thinking: which way is should I go? I hope that you, Peng.

Peng and I went to Washington, and Xu en from when I went to New York to take off that airport.

I thought I should be the most lonely people
We have forgotten the warm side pair of eyes
No matter how lonely, what a scrap
As long as you stay with me

I think that he might be the most lonely people
Ignore the mind share of beautiful tenderness
No matter how lonely are hardly helpless
Around with your feet

When I was alone when it comes to holding your
How sweet was that the
When I was lonely when it comes to thinking about you
How fortunate that the

When I was so lonely when you are holding
Life does not give up
When I was lonely, so when thinking of you
Only life you treasure

I thought I should be the most lonely people
We have forgotten the warm side pair of eyes
No matter how lonely, what a scrap
As long as you stay with me

I thought

What kind of woman would have derailed a partner "turn a blind eye"?

Experts: There are very few women will not be derailed because of a partner and painful, or the extent of pain is very light. Because of their high degree of self-satisfied about, and they are usually dominant in the core of the work. Their inner balance, firm, mature, good to restrain myself, not aggressive. Otherwise, one has been shattered plates could escalate into a "family war." They are also adept at managing their own negative emotions (such as constantly ask themselves, "what point in the end she was stronger than me?" "Is not my ugly too well boring?")

Because of their self-awareness good, so they feel, even if the betrayal was a lover, but the achievements in other areas is enough to prove their excellence, such as they are a good mother, good wife in the eyes of the outside world, good staff - these are sufficient to cushion the blow had been betrayed. In this particularly vulnerable time, if they realize that in fact, we are still in the eyes of other men attractive if they can hold on.

If she is paying more attention to "the senses of love" rather than "the spirit of love" is not any more receptive to your partner unfaithful?

Experts: There is a derailment of a man often said to me: "I would never fart in front of my lover." Derailed a partner who knows, but there is no quarreling women were very clear, both men and women, it is necessary to maintain long-term partner's loyalty is how difficult a thing ... ...

For them, a man with a lover derailment is like writing a poem, but he was, and she wrote a whole novel. So many of the chapters are long-term ramifications of living together in written in. They feel that men and lovers to share beds but Bale. That is why they think that men still love ourselves a bit more.
acceptance of a woman right off the rails do with the age-related?

Experts :25-35-year-old woman has been betrayed often adopt a "turning a blind eye" attitude, because they do not want to lose such a close relationship has just been established. 40-50 year-old woman has been learned that could derail the other half back "into the control", should come from a third party "challenge", for example, they will try to re-conquer the other half of the heart.

Sometimes infidelity is similar to electric shock therapy, will play the role of emotional catharsis. Betrayal of the woman but to rekindle the enthusiasm of partners, this situation is common. However, for some women, this renewed enthusiasm is through a depression in the performance of indulgence: the pursuit of sensual pleasure from the orgasm to get psychological comfort, like a camel suffering from obsessive-compulsive disorder repeated masturbation, alcoholism ... ... a woman over 50 it is difficult to bear the blow partner derailed because they love their own possibilities - such as attractive to men - has declined.

derailed those who receive the women and willing partner, "to remain in the dark," sometimes for several years, between lovers, do have in common?

Experts: Do not be a third party said she was willing to just "stay in the dark" on the relaxed vigilance, so that the rationalization of their presence. Some women are always happy to make a U.S. appearance, content partner for its occasional warmth. These women usually have a "fear of being abandoned," the psychological characteristics, they are used to the lack of being loved, a bit like a child growing up in the shelters, they are very afraid of breaking up, and can not take the initiative to end a relationship, even if this feeling so that she was disappointed in, disrupt or even destroy her life.

Some women can not and another man "live" because they are the ideal relations between the sexes, and hope that love is not other-worldly air, caring for each other there is the eternal appeal of the beginning of everything is love, so pure and unadulterated. And stable relationship of partner, an affair between sustainable development is difficult to go up to just marking time, after all, Valentine also can not live without rice and salt. Of course, be able to separate a considerable period of time and others remain "physical relationship" a lot of people, but once the relationship began to involve refuse to buy bread, dry clothes, would be finished.

Looking back memories like a bear's nightmare, all woven by his gossip, Xiangqilaijiu to get me emotional. If I can, I would rather reduce the decades of life, love and dignity in exchange for their innocence ... ...

Two years ago, I recruited to Washington (a pseudonym) is located in the company, he was the company's vice president, candidates, he is the examiner. I remember very clearly that the written test when I sat in the last row, Washington when I came in just the rise, and his eyes hit the positive, forward. Bow answer, I use peripheral vision to see a pair of casual shoes Montagut parked in front, do not rise I know him, Huasheng.
Can be said that the first time we met, I was on the Washington produced a unusual feeling.

Saw the interview again at Washington, he asked me a few questions, I answered too good. Under his watch, I have a very strong performance of desire did not want to let him light read, I hope to be able to demonstrate the best standard and status. After the interview, Washington gave me a certain smile, that moment I know, I am sure will be admitted.

A few days later, I received a telephone to be employed is Huasheng personally call me, and he listened with a good baritone said to me: "Congratulations on your little girl, you got accepted." I would like to inform the other girls, he would certainly not say "little girl", only I will call them that. I do not know the reason why he would think so, and only know that heart a voice telling yourself: you and he will have story.

Before I talked about in Washington two boyfriend, both ending in failure, they are not the type I wanted. I hope my other half of the mature and more stable, wisdom, humor, hard work and decisive, and these, Washington possess. Although he is 14 years old than me, even though he divorced, but what is the relationship? As long as we are really in love, as long as I wanted to give him life, others, I do not care!

To the company less than six months time, I, and Washington broke through the ordinary on the relationship between the upper and lower levels. To be a good girlfriend admonished me, let me know more about him, but was carried away by my love simply listen to. I think that love is pure, everything is simple, there is no cheating, so what to say I have no doubt Washington.

Beginning to come together, the Washington has haltingly said to me: "Small is not, one thing I must tell you, you blame me." I was very nervous, fearing he was to say do not love me. "I, I was divorced, and there is a 8-year-old son." After hearing him say, I am relieved, "I think you want to tell me that you do not divorce! Fool, what is!" " You do not care? "" do not care! if you are really love me, divorced, what? "

Perhaps Washington from the beginning misunderstood me, and he thought I totally do regarding affordable Fang Dexia. But he is wrong, I do not imagine where he could play the kind of girl, I was really paying with their own feelings. I do not care whether he is divorced, as long as he can give me a forever from this; I do not care to his 8-year-old son as a stepmother, as long as he is my love to have a huge return ... ...

Even now I can say unequivocally that I really love Washington, I never thought this is a moment of joy, but also never thought to use these be any good. I feel this is really found have been looking for the person, although there are many gaps between us, but I hope that through our efforts have enabled two people soulmate, Xixixiangtong.

Washington is also very good to me, he did spoil the child, like me, hurt me. He was worried that I am up late do not eat breakfast every morning to buy good food for me to company, if not entertaining at noon, he would have drove me out to eat, socialize'll give me a text message told me to eat well . Afraid of bad influence, and our love was not in the company public, the two can only rely on eye contact, cardiac and sweet that made me satisfied.

I have not seen Washington's son, although he said many times now want to see, he always said that inconvenient, but also said to me: "In the future you have plenty of time to cultivate their feelings, and now the time is ours, that he not be allowed to influence We are! "He is so, No matter what are so reasonable, and sometimes although I am a little happy, but could not tell him there was anything inappropriate.

Washington did not know that divorce is a definite chance. On that occasion, I went to a do Huji Jing's girlfriend playing on her computer when I readily enter the name of Washington, the displayed results surprised me: he did not even divorce!
I asked the girl how it is going on, worried about his girlfriend looked at me and said: "He deceived you."

When I asked Washington, when he finally confessed to me that divorce is not the fact that, "I already do not love her, but also long been proposed for divorce, but she did not agree, I believe I was a little not, I love you of! "" Such being the case told me the truth Why do not you? "" I'm not afraid you do not accept Me, afraid you leave me ... ... give me time, I will deal with will definitely be with you together! "

Watched him vowed look, I believe him. Perhaps let him even more determined that I was feeling random girl, he did not know the reason why I can easily forgive him, give him the chance and time, not because I am feeling casual, but too much love him, do not want to lose him, not want to believe their loved ones is despicable. Perhaps my affection and soft-hearted, gave him repeatedly deceived and hurt my chance.

Washington divorce waiting period of time, I gradually heard about our baseless rumor, most of them against me, saying that I am taking the catch of Washington, he did not withstand my young and beautiful, sometimes confused and I indulge in the Together ... ...

I have also heard that between Washington and his wife has been very stable over the years, his father is also setting up companies, business is great, the wife is an intelligent and capable woman, calm and well-being of their marriage.

I gradually began to doubt Washington's feelings for me, but whenever I have doubts that he would sweet talk Shanmenghaishi to coax me, until I once again fully trust him, willing to wait for his divorce, and so he gave me to achieve those commitments.

At that time, I did not think those rumors are cooked up by Washington hand, and he a face my Shanmenghaishi, I patiently wait for his divorce, he must give me particular sub-let me happy, but he has also all know that it is a I seduce him, and said that he and his wife had a very happy is that I get involved in these, He's young and beautiful attracted by my doing stupid things.

When I hear from colleagues to friends baseless rumor, nobody told me exactly who they pass out, and a transmission 10, 10 pass 100, and soon, almost everyone knows me and Washington thing, knowing that I get involved in his marriage, and "forced" to divorce him ... ...

When I cried on the Washington pour depressed, he was instead to comfort me, encouraged me to be brave, and said let me be the wronged future, it will properly compensate me, to love and care I love me, let me make the world's most well-being of woman.

Finally it was and I could not stand the relationship between one of the best colleagues. That colleague told me that all of these are Washington to tell you, everything he and I was asked to do, he told others that he is my struggle, but also makes for his wife, confidentiality, said he would solve the problem well and I do, because I do not want to affect the happiness of his marriage ... ... I could not believe my ears!

See my dubious look, colleagues heartless arranged a "council" - let me hide in her office, she pretended they approached Washington to allow Washington to her office to see material. So I heard at first hand, I met people who love to say such words: "Oh, and the small is not, ah, I do not hang around by her dead hold onto Well! Made me tense family relations, and really did not approach, and now the girls are crazy ... ... "
He was gone, I cling to my colleagues tears.

I broke up with Washington, said. He is sincere and Nafu look, so I do not care about those rumors, saying that he really loved me, but divorce is not easy, they are children and property issues, there are differences between the two sides do not agree with at home ... ... Anyway anyway, or those who were once told me that many times to say. I really hate myself, how would believe him before such a pack of lies? How the loved one so despicable?

See this truly paid for his do nothing, I did not expose Washington's lies, it is very firmly told him that since then we have a clean break.

Since then, although their heartache, such as twisted, I still maintain the appearance of calm, a day to work as usual, with business-like attitude towards him. Only when no one, especially a person's night, I will in tears, both miss him good to me, but also hated the deception, he told me.

If the end of the matter, a long time I would have come out from the injuries could be enjoying the cool shade, when I refused to go back later, Washington went so far as going even further to discredit me, and he not only with others, he said to seduce me , also when we are intimate details to tell others!

When the friend learned from them, I nearly fainted. Since then, I had no courage to face colleagues, always felt that I was naked in front of them, the kind of embarrassment I'd rather die. Many nights, I am sleepless, shut our eyes is a lot of people pointing to me the scene ... ... Soon after, I resigned, came to the company now.

From then on, I'm afraid to hear matters relating to any and Washington. From home to the new company to pass the original company, I prefer to take long routes, but also do not want to see inside that floor. Not immune to, or inside that building to go to run into former colleagues, I will be nervous fear, fear to hear the rumors and their own end, I even began to avoid friends, though friends who know him will not help corrupt me, but I still do not see them uncomfortable.

Looking back memories like a bear's nightmare, all woven by his gossip, Xiangqilaijiu to get me emotional. If I can, I would rather reduce the decades of life, love and dignity in exchange for their innocence ... ...

In recent years, China has become increasingly like a single big crowd. A single phenomenon in Beijing, Shanghai, Shenzhen and other large cities is even more prominent, in which single women far outnumber men. So, in the end what is the reason so that they do not want into the temple of it? We opened up a woman not to marry self-interest:

(a) to the cause as the most important

In fact, everyone is willing to attach importance to this point and hope that their objects can become Dongliangzhicai, at work, cause to succeed, but due to various constraints, at present, people with this mentality a few mate may be group where intellectuals, or a lot of people's.

They work performance, career progress as the greatest happiness in life. Whether the other side the spirit of dedication and hard work, as an important weight in the scales of selecting a spouse, to love, happiness entirely on the cause of the struggle being. Such love as the cause of the eternal rather be eternal.
(b) the pursuit of the spirit to meet the

With the social civilization and progress, and cultural qualities of the people with this mentality swelling more and more people mate, they focus on each other's thoughts and feelings, moral character, personality hobbies, etc., the pursuit of mutual communication between the spiritual and emotional harmony. As long as can be happy and satisfied in spirit, even if each other's economic conditions, poor physical condition, etc., does not matter. This built on the spirit of love is noble, and many pass for the sweet talk of the love story, all belong to this scale of psychological pursuit of love.
3) money first

This type of mating psychology is relatively common, particularly in economically backward regions. They each other's economic situation in the first place, their marriage is to get one to meet their food, clothing, shelter, play a comfortable home, or in order to survive depending on it. This approach, based on the material, money, on the basis of marriage, is not solid, because the economic conditions can be changed, it is often lost because of the other favorable material conditions, while the loss of cohesion both the attractiveness of mind, which had to split .

(d) to find a political patron

This mate psychology is quite common in the feudal society, and they opened up their own through marriage, career path, or the consolidation of officialdom on nepotism, that is, the so-called political marriage. Right now, although not common psychology of such mate choice, but to another scheme by people who are out there, they do not pay attention to both the emotional and psychological compatibility, not to mention what the aficionados, but to hide in the marriage The ulterior motive behind put love first. This love is also unreliable.
(5) the pursuit of physical beauty and

This psychological among young people occupy a very important position, everyone wanted to target a more glowing, more handsome and more, it is only human, but if the single-minded pursuit of this appearance the United States, so often go astray. Beautiful appearance created by the other side of love is short-lived. With the passage of time, love will disappear with the appearance of aging. As Goethe said: "looks beautiful and can only please a time, inside the United States can be enduring."
(6) requires a perfect

Some people choose to object, prior formulate a set of standards, think outside the box a lot, who do not meet one or two points, even if other aspects of buying, not in the account. Psychology of people with this mate, although the young person is more than love, but often cause them to become older teens.
(7) Games

Have this mentality of people, only a few. They love the name, playing other people's feelings, play fast and loose, whoring, and their outlook on life, Outlook on Love is a decadent as a result, Hune can not enjoy the real life love.

In short, men and women mate psychology is diverse, everyone can have a different psychological mate choice of others. These are but a few basic psychological mate choice. There is a saying: in order to facilitate cross-who do benefit are scattered in order to pay those colors, color decline was less frequent in order to pay those who mind before being eternal.