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She and I broke up has been 4 months, although dimly will miss, but I have to restrain myself this yearning, without any contact with her. She also did not bother me too, like life, but on a few days ago I accidentally heard from the mouths of others, some of her things to know, after I was very upset, and I did not think I so love people who do such a girl!

The two of us because of opposition from my parents finally could not come together, at the time I get along much know that she is a story of a girl, but because of all the last things I do not want to mention about his past, but she's still causes some strange behavior so I have to pay attention to us because of family opposition, but also because of her infidelity ultimately failed to come together. However, after the separation of academics can not even say her some people, I imagine the past, should I so love the girl turned out to be such a women? I am really at a loss!

She was a bright and stylish girl, walking in a crowd of men the men will be eyeing a kind, very temperament and charm. May also be due to good conditions for its own bar, after graduating from high school she went to Shanghai in Shanghai, the industry shall not be known, I have asked, but she said it was doing beauty. Later that she was Xitou Fang and nightclubs do, the money can be said to come from less clean so far and the individual who still maintains close contact. When we get along because she was once, and a man traveling together before, that is because of this I have always suffered more finally parted.

But these still not finished, returned home after the office had a boyfriend, N, there are many months she was a so-called "male friend", but also, and men do not go out on a tour, in the middle of what happened I do not say you are also acutely . May be the most serious is that I later learned that she has always been a good 10 years, lover, the man was a married man, so they can personally get along with for a long time with me did not cut off during the connection that she is now the so-called stability This work is also a good friend of her run, but later learned that this man just want to keep forever with her lover relations, but no matter what she told a man had to empty Qupei with her, and I have also heard that the man often beat her, because no one knows, only learned to see her together with another man, so the total at her.

I really hear extremely upset, and sad about it is why I once loved a woman so there is such a complex experience. Although have been split up, but I really can not put down, she will often want to her in the end Why? When I heard these stories of her when I succeeded in shaking unconsciously, tremendous heart discomfort, though I know I have been impossible for her, but why do I still have such a performance? I just could hate her, or because loved her? I am really contradictory.

I do not want to go Kuizhi her past, but now I know so many people say about their experience of a loved one's feelings to know, the better, which makes sense as saying that too, know more the more painful, I would like to forget him, but I have to live like the new face, but people love the non-vegetated difficulty, from easy to put down! So please friends give me some advice. I Gairuhezou out of this painful moment?

77th words: opening Xiao Introduction bar

Text / imp children children children

Lai Chi Yuan took me the night back to Shanghai. I huddled in Lai Chi Yuan's car, he made a remark: "You helped me to find out Xiao Bao." Lai Chi Yuan did not understand my words, but also did not ask me what. He said: "Winnie, you need a break." So I rest.

Lai Chi Yuan in the car I saw the sunrise in Shanghai. So while, Namo gorgeous so I forgot all the haze. I was looking at Lai Chi Yuan laugh and giggle like a summer vacation children. Lai Chi yuan into the arms of my football: "Winnie, I can help you do what?" I shook my head and said: "You have helped me a lot." Gorgeous so short, dark clouds is very long. But I do not want to Zaiku of.

My phone singing, from a strange number called. I said, Hey, the other side, said: "Hi, Winnie." I did not speak, the other side said: "I am JoJo." JoJo said: "I want to talk with you." Some people want to talk with me about. This is nothing more than taking people up and down like a pair of magic to open to open and close together to talk about, you can major issues to minor ones down the road. I said: "Well, talk."

JoJo said: "The opening Shaw made it." I feel funny, and asked her: "Do you think I can not release it?" JoJo smiled: "Winnie, you love as a what?" I thought: "I do not know." JoJo said: "do not know if it was OK. If you think that love important, then I tell you, Xiao made love you, and he only likes you, so you do not feel that satisfied? And if you think that love is not important, it should also be liberalized Xiaoxiao Sasa him. your side there are many important things than love, than love, important person, is not it? "I'm confused. JoJo speaks clearly and logically drawn, all in told me: open up the best way Xiao statement.

I do not epiphany: "So, do you love Shaw made it?" JoJo sigh: "with you, compared to his feelings, my worth mentioning, but I will still marry him. Xiao with my family we need to marriage, elders believe that we properly matched, I accept it wants to. I do not want fight with the family, rather than carrying the burden of living, not as good as Ann points minutes. Moreover, I also know that what Shaw already has made him a burden. "I epiphany : the dilemma could not bear to even JoJo Du Xiao words, it keeps on saying that I am in love with Xiao-yan, indeed should be open to him.

JoJo said: "We have had two business transactions a crisis of confidence, you know, the business field for all to make money, both soft and hard are alone. My parents got on his knees and begged me to marry Xiao-yan, you say that I can do? Think also felt ridiculous, I and Shaw made a marriage only for the two companies can merge without barriers, so that they could position their products placed in the U.S. Wal-Mart's shelves. "I throw in the towel. Even if I made love with Tianhuangdilao and Shaw, Haikudanlan, I also can not help them to put something on the shelves of Wal-Mart.

I said: "JoJo, thank you." I say from the bottom of the heart. JoJo so of his right, so I can not go to hate anyone. Hate is very hard, which I do not know the number of individuals afflicted. JoJo said: "Let us live well off their bar. If there is one day, I and Shaw made what the hell is no longer comparable to the enterprise product, you take him away from me, okay?" I laughed . JoJo the moonlight like a woman, let me get bringing a gray heart up.

Ding Lan said to me: "One day not seeing, how can you come down into like this?" I said: "I went to one gate of hell was again escaped back."

Jessica started looking for my trouble. She blocked me in the corner, rounded breasts should affix me. She asked: "Are you over the weekend, and Lai Chi Yuan together?" I said a lie: "No, there is no ah." Jessica fell frankly: "That's why he was not at home, do not take my calls?" I still hypocrisy: "I, how do I know?" Jessica stared at my eyes, looked good for a while before Tingzhao breasts away. I blame them: dare I do not deserve the faint-hearted.

Lilly also asked me: "over the weekend gone? So gaunt." I said: "Go cut the Gordian knot." I speak more and more profound level, the listener is puzzled. I'm Lilly, said: "When did you get me back my favor, but also to me to say the media?" Lilly disdain: "When I am busy for a while after this." I indignantly: I am really digging wells Draft forget people, either I'll give you introduced Cheng Xuan, do you have any good busy?

Who knows, only after a while children, Lilly has transformed. She asked me: "Can ah a little older?" I have not heard clearly: "What?" Lilly all seriousness: "You do not let me give you Yuemei?" I pushed again and again to thank: "I am joking no need to really, do not take it seriously. "Lilly stare me one, but also by pressing cell phone away. I thought to myself: I want to do so much older? A Lai Chi yuan would be sufficient to do.

82nd words: against each other in

Text / imp children children children

The next day, so again I put my cell phone battery Zhuangshang Qu, the messages have come in the past, the left also left a message. JoJo send text messages to me: "Do not misunderstand, Xiao words just fall on my cell phone here." I hollow laugh: I have no points unknown, but where's the position to misunderstanding? Jessica gave me a message: "Winnie, what you are looking for Lai Chi Yuan?" Jessica gave me a message: "Winnie, if you do not give me a good explanation, I want you to look good." I laughed: Jie is not the name you do not Xika no points? But where's the position you have given me look good?

Unfortunately, one of the company, saw Jessica, I is not. Jessica painted bright red bright red lipstick, squint asked me: "Are you looking for Lai Chi yuan last night, what happened?" I'm secretly Hing Wah Street West in Hing Wah Street West toes: "That's why you last night, and Lai Chi Yuan together?" Jessica outspoken: "Lai Chi Yuan's parents come to Shanghai from the United States, and I ask them to dinner." Lai Chi Yuan's parents? I know nothing about them, even they are long is round and did not know, but Jessica is giving them their lunch. Jessica at me ears fed a voice, I am This fascinating stats. Jessica asked: "What do you have?" I lied: "I owe him money, would like to still him." Generous attempts Jessica: "That you give me, I have for you back to him." I am most perplexing, how do I do not say yes Lai Chi Yuan owe me money?

Wei boss saved me. He cried: "You two do not work? Motionless on the blind and chat." I thought to myself: his brain is not normal, and I will be, and Jessica how blind chat?

Lilly eyes became swollen walnut. Wei boss said: "how to get views to Beijing in such a way, ah?" I'm on one side and sigh, Wei boss dejected way away.

Grace said to me: "Winnie, do you know? Last night, that tall man is a boss Oh." I asked: "Oh? What the boss?" "A hotel owner," Grace added : "He insisted last night and sent me home, but I refused." I echo: "Oh, well, restrained a little better." Grace also said: "He invited me for dinner tonight. it appears to me The company formerly known really to find a rich boyfriend. "I smile apologetically:" Oh, oh, I hope so. "

I searched the internet to the news: so and so leading enterprises in the birth city of hardware tools. And that leader, that is, by Xiao QIAO Jia-business enterprises and merger. The birth of that new business is known as "co-vibration." I thought to myself: Well, a co-vibration, you will be taken together gang come to me and Shaw made to the vibration stopped.

Shaw made a telephone call to me and said: "Last night I fell on a mobile phone, where JoJo." I mean: "how fall? It is down for dinner at her home her family, and was affectionate with her down in her bed ? "Xiao words would be harsh:" how? your side and that the old man affectionately as he has tubes coming from me? "I am angry, word by word to say:" Listen, we have now concluded. Last night, I did not want to call you, I just dialed the wrong. "finish, I hang up the phone.

My statement is necessary to turn against one of Shaw. I jumped to their throats like a choke of a boiled egg yolk, we must stifle.

Jiangxi Frank that solar energy company to Shanghai. He was trustworthy, making phone calls that would like to invite me to dinner. I was upset, saying: "Well, I have to eat a big meal." Frank laughed. I phone out into arm's length away, to protect the eardrum.

Graduated from college did not take long, I would love for three years, and Lin married, after marriage he had been satisfied to stay in Changchun, development, and on the help of friends go to Shanghai. Work hard for a few years, there is no imaginary good, but do not want to return to Changchun, and no way, I had to resign and go alone to Shanghai with him their fortunes.

Such a choice in someone else's eyes are blind, there's no way, in order to love, I have only to do so. To Shanghai in the next month, I began the difficult process of looking for work, the huge Shanghai, as we are the same as undergraduates everywhere. I see myself packing again and again, finally found a copy of the company clerk's work. Salaries also can be, for me, has a Hen Zhizu.

To work for two weeks, and I suddenly felt all day doing nothing. No one tells me what to do, I just kept the company leadership to participate in the meeting, doing may or may not have records of the meetings, and those who do not are endless veterans attended the reception. That the high charge of our name manager, has been using a very strange eyes looked at me, I feel very uncomfortable.

In a huge company, I feel like an extra person can be busy all day with other employees, for my leisure and idleness, neither ignored nor curious, but the name of greeting each other lightly. Fortunately, people have made a good salary for me to support. I put my doubts and Lin said he was comforting me and will get better gradually, and Shanghai, local, human indifference, the relationship between reality, and so I wait too long, they will naturally find their own locations.

Finally, I came to the company's first three months, I was specifically appointed as a high manager's secretary. All the people were in an ambiguous response of eyes looked at me, I do not understand very happy on the inside. In one afternoon, high manager called me into office, I assigned a task - and travel with him.

I go home at night and her husband about this matter, her husband asked vigilant to the nature of your work, the manager let you travel do? I've temporarily speechless. Yes ah, to my job, there should be no travel opportunities. But I still argue Road, newcomers can and managers travel, which is more than a good chance you are still here like 3 to 4 in! Husband quickly explained that I am just worried that a lot of things you do not understand, especially for veterans such as your middle-aged men, to beware of ... ah ...

Asked about her husband, if I did not always listen to how many think he is totally unjustified. He is obviously not worry me!

The next day, the driver of high managers come pick me, we went to Shenzhen and an important client to talk about the second half of the business contract. Clear tasks, and my mind free from anxiety more. Got off the plane, we are placed in a very luxurious hotel stay there, obviously, high-managers often come here. Just settle down, and his phone rang constantly. Putting down the telephone, he said to me: "Xiao Li ah, today, I lead you to an eye-opener, insights about Shenzhen's nightlife!" Every night, in high-managers under the leadership of he and I attended a banquet his friend arranged Jie Feng .

During the meeting, I learned that the men are mostly business owners can imagine how much higher managers face. Dinner, I drink a lot of wine, has its own drink, other people respect, high manager Irrigation. In short, I began to need to force myself not to shake the sense of walking. The only remaining reason I told myself must continue. 22:30, dinner was finally over, other people have dispersed, the driver to take us back to the hotel.

Down the elevator, back to our respective rooms, into the room at the moment, I have a hanging heart finally put down. Upright in bed, only to feel the ceiling over his head spinning. My heart was still sober, laughed her husband to worry, because there is no what was happening. As I half awake, the room phone rang. High manager. He asked me not to sleep, I said not, "Well, here you come to my trip to tomorrow's talks on the file Naqu tidy up." So late, I murmured to myself, but still opened the door , lingered for nearly five minutes, and finally pressed his doorbell.

Has just entered the room, without waiting for me to speak, he grabbed my hand, the moment, I close the distance with him, I can clearly feel his breath. "High-manager you are drunk, and I Fu you sleep!" Panic, I do not lose protocol. I was very aware that he was loaded drunk, but I can not expose him. As I think these moments, he had pressed me sit on the bed.

My heart is very chaotic, sometimes do not know how to deal with him. Unexpectedly, he was prepared to like foregone said to me: "You're so smart, should know a lot of things. Let's Xiao and Oda (female executives of both companies) are related to me well, and you see them now life, Do not you want to do? "he said as he rub my hand. At this point, I feel so complicated that I had never met such a delicate matter, perhaps because of alcohol, perhaps because of the desire, perhaps is more clear, the mood on the inside, just as I hesitated, I reluctantly, and his down in bed ... ...

The next day, in addition to talk about business, we are almost all day locked up in the room, a business trip just for this day to find a materialistic society full of reasonable grounds. A week later, we returned to Shanghai. After I returned a guilty conscience, the face of her husband's thoughtful greetings, and my heart is even more chaotic.

However, I position in the company there is an obvious change, some things will be an immediate impact after investment, such as my salary, my work environment. I have a new identity in the first month we got the highest wage in the office, but also has its own office. Such a change so that every one stolen on the colleague. Soon I was promoted to director of the office, so that kind of entertainment also will be more than up. I began to travel frequently, there are endless text messages back, then could not finish the call. Actually no business, but rather needs and transactions. Soon I, and high managers of the ambiguous relations are not a secret.

May be the only part of my secret was discovered by her husband, it is one I have not deleted SMS flirting betrayed me, and looked at his expression of despair, pain, I know that finished between us. He was angry, hysterical, red with rage from the fist to pound me, I did not avoid, because it was I just punishment. He did not ask for a divorce to me, saying to leave Shanghai, and go the other day that did not let me know. More than a month later, I received the mail of his divorce agreement, I began to realize that, he returned to Changchun.

Lin's departure deeply affected I was in Shanghai to continue their work mood, no one knows my hardship, in order to avoid all this, I resigned and went back to Changchun. Only one year, around the circle, I was back to square one. But in fact, I've been unable to return to the past, and never be able to look back to that class on the day it was at home waiting for me, there is a warm light, hot meals, loved faces.

Now, I'm already a restored single woman, night, I walked into the dark cold rooms, no longer feel the gentleness and love that people feel safe and familiar taste. This is the God of this life, my biggest punishment.

87th words: winter cold hard my heart

Text / imp children children children

The next morning, as planned, I met the mission Qu Najia. Wei boss said yes, I sent out, is always decent, ultra. People can not not be disguised, or else, like naked the same.

The next afternoon, I am ready to return to Shanghai, but before his departure received JoJo phone. JoJo Direct said: "Winnie, I did not think you are such a silly." I stared. JoJo like crying: "Xiao words tell me that you come to him. He also said that you will not separate. Winnie, so that you feel happy?" I still stare blankly forward. JoJo true is crying: "I did not expect that we three will become today's situation." I said nothing and hung up. Introduction of the JoJo Shaw is concerned, is no longer with their parents or that simple. I finally understand why Shaw would say that statement is not brain JoJo woman. Women handed out once the heart, it will also be missing even the brain.

Lai Chi Yuan send text messages to me: "You just need to tell me that you are okay." I could not wait to call him, saying: "I am safe, I am safe." Lai Chi Yuan sigh of relief: "That's a relief." And my heart was Jiujin of. This man does not care about what I did, what went wrong, he only care about my peace, we should like my parents the same. I said with a smile: "Do you have an insurance company of people? Afraid I am out of the accident, want you to compensation?" Lai Chi Yuan said: "I am the insurance company sent you out of your side to prevent the accident." I suddenly want to cry, saying that : "You got to protect my 1:00, but I can not protect me." Lai Chi Yuan silent.

Cheng Xuan come to Shanghai, he took a negative with Jing, but it is a good faith cavity. Lilly flip-flop out of the two drops of tears, but also, and Cheng Xuan pushing a few times, then acknowledge your fate and dropped into his arms. I think highly of a goose bumps again and again back away.

Wei Ferrari boss took a few New Year's reception to the ticket by shouting: "The girls, who go? Who is going? Where the Italian men as handsome, but oh, like sculpture." I Pielepiezui, thinking: Wei You say that I am the boss the company as a vegetable market, where the parents all day long is short, can you look at yourself, do not kick into gear Za Za is the same as Aunt do? Grace Shoujiyankuai snatched one: "And these are rich, right?" Wei boss gave her a squeeze squeezed eyes, said: "Yes, as I do money." My mouth will soon write to the ears: see see, see also the company twinkle, like looks like.

Wei boss holding the last one came in front of me: "Winnie, you do not?" I smile apologetically: "I am not interested." I did not realize, she threw the boss goes as far as my ticket to the table, said: "Go, it is work." I protested: "What kind of work ah?" "You are always a last Kutaichoushen face, affect morale. so you have to go to relax." I sighed, feeling the boss is probably synonymous with importune. For me, sigh, Wei boss also make sense: "You see, they sigh. I owe you pay it?" I shook my head, smiles, so that he received the sound.

Grace is wearing a pink skirt ceremony, like a tender and beautiful roses. I would still be at work wearing a suit jacket of that piece and that piece skirt suit, standing on Grace's side, his face solemn, like her female bodyguards. Grace said: "This is a small arm on your leg it? Also bodyguards?" I took a deep breath: "known for coming to Internal Strength."

Wei boss who went so far as to bring a hostess present, a typical scholar-beauty.

Lai Chi-yuan come, Jessica with him around like a rope, like children Shuanzhao. Lai Chi yuan down graceful, came up to me: "You have come." I am Jessica noses, hands do not know of the Fang Naer. I said: "ah, come." Jessica turned a supercilious: "nonsense. She did not come is it that this is Ghosts?" I am busy pulling Grace away.

Wei boss in my eyes dangling, until he called to me: "Winnie, do not Akira, and I saw you." I said: "See ah? It can not say I did not complete its work ah. "She's the boss has also turned a supercilious look. I thought: really deserves to be called pro-brother and sister.

Grace braved the green eyes, swore: "I Jiubu Xin, so many rich, one also fail to get me." I tapped her shoulder and said: "That's bodyguards had to retire the first."

I wrapped jacket, left. No long winter period, frozen hard in my heart. I have the streets to dance, spin out one by one lap, high-heeled shoes knock on a concrete floor, tap creaked. I laughed the sound. Lai Chi Yuan's voice sounded: "It looks beautiful." I thought it was an illusion, so they spin in a circle. I saw the Lai Chi Yuan came up to me, step by step, steadily Dangdang. I have an unstable sitting on the ground wrestling.

Thus the end of ... ...

Some can not bear ... ...

Please understand ... ...

All the way come to this, who can know then, or is the final, will do?

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